Showing posts with label swing dancing. Show all posts
Showing posts with label swing dancing. Show all posts

November 18, 2016

my number is twenty-three

a couple of years ago,
i fell for a friend's post online
and had to write 23 things about myself.


some things haven't changed, yet other's have.

1. i still love country music. the only reason i ever listen to pop radio
is because the country stations are playing commercials.

2. i still love western swing dancing.
it's been a little rough getting back into the saddle post mission, but it's still a thing.

3. i have been to a concert. i saw scotty mccreery live for $5 as part of his "see you tonight" tour.

waiting outside the doors wasn't too bad when you have good company.
rhett, me, andrew

third row my friends. for $5.
thank you utah state.
4. i have shot a gun. lots of times. and most times i have a pretty good shot too,

wyoming mountains make the best backdrop for pictures
5. i am still better at fixing other people's problems.
my dad calls it perspective; i call it free therapy.

6. i must have skipped this one.
so, i'll make one up.
i know spanish.
y si, puedo entenderte cuando hablas de mi.

7. i work at a grocery store again. 
and some days are better than others.
like wednesdays. i like wednesdays.
fridays and mondays not so much.

8. i still automatically respond to people's comments.
thank you customer service jobs.

9. the number is a lot bigger than three now.

10. i am getting better at recognizing faces.
it's still hard, but i can thank the mission for that.
if you can remember a unique quality about them,
it helps a lot.

11. to  16. 
nothing has changed.
but allow me to digest something:
i am an accounting major.
and yes, i like it.
there are a lot of numbers,
but even more principles and concepts to remember.
#appreciate_your_accountant

17. i found out that i won't have to take a calculus class
or any more math-intensive classes to graduate
and i cried a little tear of gratitude.

18. i now live with only three other girls.
and we are each other's sounding boards.
no hard feelings here!

19. my love life is still interesting like string theory,
but at least it's engaging now.
(no, that was not an announcement)

20. more than words can recount.

21. i have fixed myself of this habit.
(thank you mission)
but sometimes, it would be nice
to knock some sense into people.

22. that one has changed.
to quote keith urban,
"to, to kiss and tell, it's just not my style."

23. beards are still one of the most attractive things ever.

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these kinds of posts are kind of fun to write,
because i get to see my personal growth.

somethings haven't changed,
and i guess that just makes me, me.

progress is made
and i am thankful for the memories
that mark those changes.

thank you.

October 15, 2013

a love-ly update

my love life is seriously in the tanks.

the guy that i did like is practically in love with another girl who is just waiting through the days before she goes on her mission. i have done pretty much everything to try and be cool and be his friend, but that just wasn't working for me. i was letting him string me out and i finally had enough of it last wednesday at swing dancing. he spent the entire evening attached to her like she was his girlfriend and if i am honest with myself, i was so jealous. i wanted him to be looking at me like that, like i was the girl that he wanted to spend time with, not the clingy girl that needs affirmation from him. so after i dropped off my passengers off at the apartment, i went and spent some time in the car, writing down my last good-bye down on a napkin. yea, a napkin.

i wrote down all the feelings that i had and told him everything that i had ever wanted to say. but i can't tell bring myself to tell him about. to go up to him and tell him.

so i really have no idea what to do, except to avoid looking for his truck in the parking lot and try and connect with other people at swing dancing. to not hang around him and try not to get him to ask me for a dance. to finally heed my parents' and ryan's advice and make him do the work. be a girl for once and let him do the work.

and how difficult that is proving.